After an unexpected divorce after 36 years, I found myself alone and on anti-depressants. I bought a small 2 bedroom house and asked my widowed mother to move in with me. That was 5 years ago. We would go shopping, eat out and do things together. Her health has been going downhill the past 2 or 3 years and now I'm her primary caregiver. She has heart problems, renal failure and other complications of being 88 years old. She can be alone during the day when I'm at work, but once I get home, I spend all my time with her. Her eyesight is going, so we don't watch much TV anymore. She can't knit or read books like she used to. All her daytime hours are spent in her recliner. She can get to the bathroom with her walker and to kitchen to grab something premade. My problem is I've lost all interest in doing anything but spending time with Mom. I feel I should be with her as much as possible because she won't be around too much longer. When I sit in the living room with her, I get very anxious and then I don't feel like doing anything else. Her appetite is gone too, so coming up with something for her to eat is a challenge. I have no life outside of going to work and coming home to take care of Mom. I feel consumed with guilt, but I am also scared of life without her around. I had a breakdown when my husband left me and I hope I can cope with losing Mom. Thanks for listening to my babble.