My counselor connected me with this website in the hopes I can find some support. I am 34 years old and currently the caretaker for my wife who is 28 years old with a disease called NF2. She has had so many surgeries and treatments (still getting these) to control all these tumors on her nerves. She cannot walk on her own or drive.
I feel like we are not even married as I honestly feel like just an at-home nurse/caretaker all the time now. Her tone and attitude is constantly negative and hateful. I feel alone like I do not have any support for me. Her family is all words and no action. I am also depressed because I see what other 34 year olds are doing and I am not getting that, from having kids to going on vacations and enjoying them. I do take my wife places but I cannot enjoy it because I am constantly taking care of her.
I know she cannot help it and I know I would want the same help if it was me but that does not make it any easier. I feel so lost. I cry a lot and just feel overwhelmed.
Does anyone else feel these things? How do you cope and manage?