My responsibilities are light compared to most, for now. My husband is slightly disabled after a mild stroke, a dear friend is badly disabled after a severe stroke (I'm secondary caregiver there), and my MIL and FIL will need more help as time goes on (I will be primary caregiver for them).
I also expect to do at least some caregiving for at least two additional family members within the next couple of years.
Duration, however, is an issue. If all goes well, I expect caregiving to continue for the rest of my life, or, at least, for as long as I'm able. There may be a "post-caregiving" time, but that's truly the Worst Case Scenario.
My problem? I have some freedom now, even though it's limited and time comes in unpredictable scraps. I'll have less, soon enough. But, right now? I'm scared to try anything new. What if someone needs me? What if I make a non-caregiving commitment, only to get yanked away -- again?
Have anyone of you pulled yourself out of a self-inflicted rut? Or is this exactly where I should be now -- no plans, no movement, just waiting?