I have been a professional caregiver for over 11 years. There's been many times I have felt burnt out and have tried to get another job. I apply for jobs, even have an interview, but i'm never hired. I keep pushing thru being a caregiver because I need to have a job. I know it's affecting my health greatly- depression, anxiety, stressed. I also find it difficult to find another job that pays what I am currently making. I am burnt out again and I am tired of helping my 3 clients- 2 seniors and one disabled in her 40's. I feel like my job makes people lazy to the point of where they don't do anything for themselves. Sometimes I even have to think for my one 40 something year old client. She doesn't take responsiblity for herself and wants to be in "lala land" 24/7. I guess I care too much and it drives me nuts that she just sits there and plays games on her tablet literally all day long. She doesn't see a counselor, but she needs to. She doesn't want to do anything to help herself out. I see her 3 times a week and it seems like there is always a new health issue with her every time. It's a sad situation. I have a senior client that uses passive aggressive communication with me and it drives me nuts. I don't know how to deal with her. I feel like I have to walk on eggshells when i'm working with her and I have to be careful of what I say. In someways she acts like a little kid and she's 73. She doesn't want to see a counselor at all to help her mental health. I would love to see a counselor, but can't afford it since I have other bills. I want out of caregiving so bad! My other client is 83 and has some dementia. She is going down hill quite a bit this year, especially after recently getting the new shot that everyone supposedly needs to have nowadays- which I don't agree with. It's sad to see her decline and having new health issues. I have to be her memory because her memory isn't great. These clients are a handful. I just went on a 4 day vacation and I don't even feel like I got a vacation. I was not happy to be back at work this week. I've become so negative over my work. I try to look for the positives, but it is hard. I want a new job so bad. I know places are hiring right now, but the salary isn't what i'm making. I can't afford to make a lower salary. I feel stuck and worn down. I just needed to vent. Thanks for listening!