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Hi,
Hi, I’m very relieved to have found this site/forum. I am a 38 year old woman with a husband that was diagnosed with a rare form of cancer, osteochondroma sarcoma, on 5-21-12. It was found in his right knee. I remember sitting in the exam room with the doctor and saying, okay then let’s fight it. The type of cancer my husband was diagnosed with is resistant to chemo and radiation. The only way to successfully treat it is to remove the joint. Well he had already had a total knee replacement 3 years prior. That meant that he would have to have an above the knee amputation (AKA). This rare form of cancer does not metastasize to other joints, but to the lungs. Yep you guessed it… it moved to his lungs. After several trips to the hospital to monitor the nodules in his lungs he finally decided to have them treated. Due to his weight which had increased due to the depression from his diagnosis, the docs were unable to do the lung resection. He did successfully undergo a Radio Frequency Ablation procedure to burn the nodules out. On 1-22-13 my husband drove with two legs and feet for the last time to the hospital to have his AKA. He made it through the surgery just fine. It was the next day that all H&(( broke loose. His kidney’s started to fail as a result of the pain meds he was given to help his body deal with the shock of losing a limb. He was intubated and rushed to ICU. Fortunately his kidney’s started functioning as soon as he was placed on a vent to keep his O2 and CO2 numbers normal. Over the course of the next month my husband was intubated and extubated 4 times before a tracheotomy was done. These intubations are now referred to as traumatic intubations as they were all done when he de-stated (once when he threw a saddle PE 7 cm in size – if he had not been in the ICU he would have died that night). He finally came home from the hospital 49 days after his amputation. Since then he has had 10 surgeries on his throat/vocal cords/airway to remove scar tissue to allow him to breathe normally. His last surgery was last week. He had a surgery that, if it doesn’t work, means the trache will be permanent. Due to a stent that the doc has placed to allow his larynx to heal, he is currently unable to talk. He has had the trach since April 2013. He has currently wheelchair dependent due to not being able to overexert himself with training on his prosthetic. He is constantly coughing up phlegm. He is still able to work as he works from home full time in the IT industry. As a result of all of this I have become the primary doer of everything in our home. I do all of the cooking, cleaning, shopping, yard work, bill paying, home improvement projects, car repairs (when I can), child rearing (we have custody of his 17 yr old son). I do all of the care for the pets, and the holiday organizing. I do all of the medical care stuff. I know what meds he takes more than he does. I deal with the bill collectors asking for payments. I feel like I’m no longer his wife, but servant. I don’t even remember the last time we shared a bed (not just the physical part but just to be in the same bed) (he uses the hospital bed in our living room and I sleep in our/my bedroom on the 2nd floor). I don’t remember the last time he told me he loved me. I feel so guilty for even thinking about these things. I came so close to losing him several times while he was in ICU that I know every day he is with us is a gift. I wonder though, if our positions were reversed, would have done all of this for me. As I have re-read this I see how selfish it sounds, but I can’t help the fact that I miss having a marriage and a full partnership. All I have left is a patient. I miss my husband. I hate that I feel this way as I know this is what I signed up for when I married him (in good and in bad, in sickness and in health), but I'm just so tired... so very tired... :~(
EJV,
EJV, I can so relate to your feelings of a servant for your spouse. It does to many who do not function in this way that we might be whining. I hear a lot that I am lucky to still have him in my life. I could not agree more, but I miss the relationship we had, and now since he is getting worse, I miss what we still could have. I work full time and ended up back in school to be able to survive financially when he is gone. But, many do not understand how draining it is, nor how difficult to look at the man you love and watch him deteriorate in front of you. Every day is a gift, even if I spend my time watching him sleep because of the disease, the meds or boredom or depression. I am alone in my struggle as we do not live close to family and our child has grown and moved away with her own young family. One hard thing for me is to leave to go to work, knowing he is home alone. I can call him several times during my work day, but I begin to panic if I can't reach him. I can't afford to quit my job as we would not be able to afford our home if I did. Luckily, he recognizes some of the effects this has had and is willing to talk. It is these talks, although at times morbid, that remind me what a wonderful man I married and that he still loves me, but hates that he depends on me so much.
Hello everyone. I'm new
Hello everyone. I'm new around here although I have been a caregiver to my wife for 4 years now (stage 4 cancer) and I think I have felt every emotion and had every thought that has been expressed in this thread. More and more often I find myself thinking how much better it would be for both of us if the cancer would just win. Of course, I then feel guilty for having those thoughts. Folks tell me how strong I am and how devoted I am and so on. They don't ever seem to understand how tired I am of it all, how lonely I feel all the time now, and that I do NOT want to talk to them about my wife, her cancer, or taking care of her. But that is all anyone wants to talk about. My employer lets me work from home. I go into the office when I can, but it is rare. Of course, that is a big help in many ways, but it just adds to the isolation. I, too, am doing this single-handedly. Our family is far away and friends don't come around much any more. Can't say as I blame them. We, especially I, am not much fun to be around any more. No more hobbies. Little conversation. No personal relationship with my wife. No life but work at work and work at home.
My husband was diagnosed with
My husband was diagnosed with early stage alzheimers and early stage parkinsons. He is aware of what is going on some of the time but he refuses to bathe or do any of the things the doctors tell himi. He can hardly get around because all he does is sit in front of the TV all day. He refuses to go for a walk or to a senior center and he refuses to bathe. I am beside myself as we cannot go anywhere when he is dirty and stinks. I don't know what to do, I cannot physically overpower him and make him do things and when I ask him he tells me I am not his boss. Any suggestions greatly appreciated.
To DebR ~ My husband has ALS
To DebR ~ My husband has ALS and I am his only caretaker. He was diagnosed September 2012, drove until June of 2013 and now he can no longer walk and his arms and hands are useless. ALS is quick and he is now 42. I have used Gold Bond body powder triple action relief in the yellow bottle on him and it takes away the itch and the stink. Better than nothing and at this point I would tell you not to force your husband to do anything he doesn't want to right now. He has to adjust to the situation and everyone handles things differently. My husband is stubborn and I have had to just wait until he was ready for each step. I hope this helps! And good luck, it's not easy, rewarding, fun, or anything else. It is straight self sacrifice.
Goodness knows I needed to
Goodness knows I needed to read the above entries today. I care for my husband who has been disabled for the last year and a half. He suffers greatly every day, his journey started with a supposed hernia, that incidentally was a large tumor growth. Within three weeks of torture waiting we were told his tumor growths while not cancerous are life threatening and they gave us three months to get our affairs in order. We found he had tumors throughout his stomach, around his groin, and choking his spinal cord. 2/3 of his spinal cavity filled and nerve damage causing him to no longer be able to walk, or eat, they scheduled a series of surgeries to inspect the masses in his stomach and spine as a last ditch effort to stave off the rapid growth. My husband of now four years has been the main provider for our family, I was taking Care of my disabled grandparents- I was already stretched thin as a care giver and the day they told us of the exponential growth near his brain and that it was inoperable my grandmother passed away. I had started working a month prior to this event in our life after taking a year off after suffering a miscarriage that nearly cost me my life. I have spent hours pouring over an extreme budget to keep us out of debt from mounting bills while sorting through the life my grandparents left behind my mother shuffling the burden to me as she couldn't handle the stress of that while grieving her mother. She slapped me disrupting her grief with my problems, my tears that I was an ungrateful child. I waited in survery for my husband for eight hours, he was never guaranteed to come out alive and went directly to icu for internal bleeding and complications- his mother let me know that evening by phone that they could not handle seeing him this way and have disowned us. I'm utterly spent- we have worked so hard to now be able to look back and have beaten the odds this long. Only for my husband to sink into despair and lose any desire to live. I'm drowning.
Neen
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SO sorry!

God Bless u Hun.   Wow I am praying for you to be comforted. Keep up the great work. I thought I had it bad w my paralyzed husband. Try to reach out for a sitter, go for a cup of coffee try to take tiny pleasures.On the other hand I have thought of a wiffle ball bat once or twice... ;) joking ofcourse but if we dont laugh....

KarenS
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What's the definition of marriage...

So what is the definition of marriage.  When I hear the word, I don't feel it...  not anymore.  It's more like a roommate.  I hear the word love a lot, but there are many kinds of love.  Sometimes, along with the illness comes the feeling love too has faded.  It may be easier to handle if ones spouse talked, and listened. 

This article isn't really what we feel, but I read "What It Feels Like to be in a Sexless Marriage" and some of it does feel that way.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/divorced-moms/sexless-marriage-when-a-m_b_6610402.html

 

Smedley_Butler
Hi Karen.

Hi Karen.

This is the 2nd post of yours I have read tonight that I immediately connected with.  I am in the same boat.  Love for me, now, means unending work and exhaustion.  I make commitements and stick to them, but I am reaching the end of my rope and when this is all over, all I want to do is become a hermit until my time finally, blessedly, comes.  I fell guilty as hell about it, but, God help me, deep down I just want all this to be over.

KarenS
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You shouldn't feel guilty...

You shouldn't feel guilty.  As they say "Life is for the living".  It's unfortunate that some ill people stop living to their full capacity.  I'm lucky in the respect that financially I don't have to worry.  Some have that worry to contend with too.  I get guilt from that..  having a nice home, trips, ability of quiting my job, good food, vacations...  yet still VERY unhappy.  That feeling of no intimacy, and want sucks the joy right out of you.  I hear that you should live in the moment, which I keep trying to do, but still can't get back my smile. 

Don't work yourself to a pulp.  There must be more to life.  I haven't made many friends here, most of them are in my home-state.  No family here either.  It can be very lonely.  I won't know what to do if it weren't for my dog.  She gives me inconditional love.  My husband is in bed for most of the week following his chemo which he gets every 3 weeks.  I feel lethargic jsut sitting around with him. 

Yes, I too have been called a strong woman...  which honestly I hate to hear.  I don't want to be strong....  I'm tired of strong.  I want the happy, smily, sweet, carefree woman that has a dance in her step back.  You do get it back..  but it comes in time after they're gone.  See I've been through this, so I know the story.  The endings not a happily-ever-after, but later the smiles do return.  For me it's like a bad relived dream... that I too wish would end.  It will in time, and I know we don't want that...  we just want some happiness and joy.  Just too bad it can't be how you want it. 

Guess we have to take what we're dealt with..  do the best we can, and try to get through it. 

 

Smedley_Butler
Thanks, Karen.  Your words

Thanks, Karen.  Your words have helped me more than any others I've heard in a long time.  You give me hope that I will make through all this and what is yet to come and have something of a life when I come out the other side.

Hang in there and I will do the same.

KarenS
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Hanging in there is all we can do.....

Hanging in there is all we can do.  It may get worse before it gets better, but we have absolutely no control over it.  You have control only of yourself.  We can take this in a down way, or do the best to keep somewhat upbeat.  Keep forcing that smile on your face... one day it will come back automatically.  Well, at least that's my hope for us all. 

Today I'm looking at azcentral to find something to do.  It's hotter than heck here in Arizona, but no complaints...  it beats the cold snowy winters of Chicago.  Indoor activities...  a theatre play, or indoor baseball game haha.  The snowbirds are gone, so are outdoor events unless you do a roadtrip up north where it's a bit cooler.  We'll see what I can find. 

You do the same...  find something nice to do for yourself. 

 

KarenS
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So much for getting out...

So much for getting out today.  Not meant to be I guess.  Hopefully the rest of you weren't housebound, and had a nice weekend out.  smiley

KarenS
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SOME GOOD WEBSITES.... What About Sex...Who Helps the Caregiver

Here's some good websites with info on "What about sex", "Who helps the caregivers" and "When caregivers care too much".  I'm going to the bookstore today, and will look into the books "Caregiving Wife's handbook" and "Who Helps the Caregivers"...  along with any others that may be good reading. 

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-caregivers-handbook/201304/what-about-sex

https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-caregivers-handbook/201302/who-helps-the-caregivers

 https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/the-caregivers-handbook/201208/when-caregivers-care-too-much

KarenS
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A book for spouse caregivers...

I just ordered this book, which seems like it might be good info for husband or wife caregivers.  I'll let you know once Barnes and Nobles gets it in for me to read.  Below is the book overview.

The Caregiving Wife's Handbook: Caring for Your Seriously Ill Husband, Caring for Yourself by Diana B. Denholm

Overview

A month after proposing marriage, Diana Denholm's husband was diagnosed with colon cancer and later congestive heart failure. Following a heart transplant several of her husband's body systems began failing forcing Diana to become his primary caregiver for more than a decade. The Caregiving Wife's Handbook is a step-by-step communication guide to help women maintain emotional, physical and financial health in their unique role as caregivers to their dying husbands.

Women are suffering physical, emotional and financial burnout as the United States' leading caregivers. Of the 65 million caregivers in the U.S., 66% are women, and these numbers will only increase as the population ages. And while statistics and resources abound for caregivers in general, very little exists for women in their unique role as caregivers to their dying husbands.

Traditionally, caring for a dying husband has been seen as a "wifely duty." Most wives don’t label themselves, and aren’t labeled by others, as caregivers. But advances in medical technology are making this distinction an imperitive since women are under more stress as caregivers than at any other time in history. Although there are generic similarities in caretaking, caregiving for a dying husband is distinctly different, and the longer the dying process, the more complex the problems.

When a husband is in the process of dying for many months or years the experience is quite different than a husband's sudden death. On top of dealing with the tragedy, the wife must figure out how to make life work. Sometimes a woman is married to the love of her life and sometimes not. Some marriages strengthen, while others disintegrate. Some women are in abusive relationships and find the abuse continues, and even increases, during these times, while others find, much to their surprise, that they become the abusers. Still some will start or increase substance abuse and others will have affairs to get by.

The Caregiving Wife's Handbook aims to help women get through their husbands' illness and death with compassion, emotionally whole and without regret by helping them communicate clearly—and in steps—about issues affecting this unique caregiving relationship.

Without specific direction, many women find themselves over the top with stress as their lives change radically. As a board certified medical psychotherapist and primary caregiver, Diana Denholm recognized the need for a step-by-step process to help women communicate with their husbands to avoid irreparable damage and regret.

In The Caregiving Wife's Handbook, you will learn:

To ask questions you may not realize you need to ask

The issues that bother you and a method for categorizing them

What you should and shouldn't discuss with your husband

How to make and prepare for a date to talk about difficult topics

What to do if your husband won't talk

To create "understandings" with your husband

How to deal with his family

You will also learn survival tips from the case histories of Joyce, Fran, Tina, Jean, Susan, and Mary. Their experiences will help you:

Choose roles you should take and those you should avoid

Understand what is “normal” in what you’re experiencing and feeling

Take care of yourself so you can survive and even have fun

Implement do’s and avoid don’ts to make your life simpler

Balance with greater ease

Other topics addressed are:

Sex life/intimacy

Current and future finances

Fatigue

Sleep

Household duties

Job responsibilities

Irresponsible behaviors

Unrealistic expectations...

The challenges of this time are endless and extreme and the reality often isn’t the beautiful and revered journey often portrayed. When a husband is dying of a long-term illness, the gift of time can allow us to prepare and say all the loving things we need to say, but it can also provide a lot of time for severe stressors and problems to develop. These problems and stressors can be debilitating for the caregiver and provide too many opportunities to say and do things we might regret. The Caregiving Wife's Handbook will give you the tools and support needed to get through your husbands' illness and death with compassion, emotionally whole and without regret.

Let The Caregiving Wife's Handbook support you amidst the grief—all the way through the Final Chapter.

 

 

TrueLove
Glad you all are here:-)

 

Hello There Caregivers, I  found this forum today and i just wanted to say hello and that I'm glad you are all here partaking in this. My beloved spouse/husband has Alzheimers and cancer. I must say, It has already lifted my heart a little coming accross your online support. I too can feel pretty lonely at times in this new role of spousal caregiver. I actually was having a pretty tough day when I found this site. I was feeling overwhelmed w caregiver issues as well as other life issues, one of which is that we Just moved and our home is still in total disarray. It seems with everything going on and some of my own health issues i just dont seem to b able to get things organized as easily as i used to and that drives me bonkers. Even though my husbands Dementia is the hardest challenge Ive ever faced, I do KNOW, with all my heart, that taking care of him is a blessing for me as well. However, many many days I have to repeatedly tell myself....I CAN do this.....but only if I only take it one day at a time, or somedays, even just a mere moment at a time. Btw, I too miss my husband the way he was before the dementia became debilitating. God i miss him so very very much! As many of u know or have said, the relationship does take such a dramatic turn. A turn from spousal partner, confidant, friend and lover, to now..... where we are most of the time virtually in a parental role with them. Whew.... No school for this life change is there? Thanks to all of you for your sharing; whether its to reach out For support or to reach out to Give support. It ALL has the potential to help one another. I know there are somedays i just need to hear another soul admit that they too struggle with feeling somewhat inept to carry this gauntlet of caregiver and yet other days, I seek and need words of encouragement. So thanks to u all for All u share... And for simply being here. 

Kindest Regards:-)

 

 

Allez
Adapting

As long as someone you love is alive, you can always say sweet things to each other that will melt your heart. You can always kiss them or lay your hand on them in a loving rest, or pat. This will keep the connectedness alive and make everything easier.

As far as the having a partner in the sense of all the other ways we were used to, you will have to adapt: maybe keeping yourself in practice all by yourself so you don't lose the physical abilities.  ha ha I thought about hiring a professional sex therapist or something at one time. But as long as you don't let your body completely go without, you'll make it through.  As far as having fun and someone to share things with, you'll have to let friends be that part of your life for now. So force yourself to get out there and go to church or volunteer somewhere where you can be part of a community that keeps you alive but also accepts whatever amount of time you able to give.  I don't believe in giving up my whole life to be of service to my spouse's.  I believe God has given me the tools to be able to serve the love of my life while also keeping my gift from Him (Life and this body) going in a way that is strong, robust and vibrant.  I believe there is a way. All I have to do is find it. Maybe I'll have to search in different places as I go, but I believe I can and in the searching I will learn of all God's gifts that I would otherwise never have had to develop or use.     Good luck to you!  God bless all of us!  I am very thankful that We are in this together. Allez

 

 

Finn
Stem Cell Transplant?
I am responding to the message below. I just joined thios site after reading your post. My wife is very near getting a stem cell transplant. We are worried about graft vs host disease and other horrors. If she doesn't get the transplant, she will die. Would you and husband do the transplant again if you were able?
Finn
Relationship with Spouse

nan, I can relate to your post, and I am so sorry you are going through this. I've been my husband's caregiver for  5 years. He's had two stem cell transplants, suffers from chronic graft versus host disease, neuropathy, recently had shingles and now has pneumonia. I don't know how much longer I can stand this. We live on an acreage in the woods so unless I actively seek out someone to be with it's just the two of us day after day. There are plenty of people I could socialize with but often I don't have the energy to get out. Is this my life now? I'm 61 and feel like I will never have fun again and that my life is over. Then I feel guilty for feeling this way. 

strugglingbutstrong
Finn

Hi Finn

Sorry that you and your wife are facing this. My husband had a bmt in 2007. He still has issues with GVHD and is still on a bunch of meds. You asked a member if they would do it over again. From my perspective, I wish that he could have had a natural approach to healing. All of these meds he is on has caused other problems like high bp, diabetes, mood swings, etc. and always lurking is the fine print of how the meds can cause secondary cancer down the line.. I am thankful that he is here and in many ways has gotten better than he was...at one point, I didn't think he was going to make it.  But being sick for so long, he is bitter and angry, depressed and has alot of self pity and it's emotionally draining to deal with.

There really is nothing that can prepare you for what chronic illness will bring. You never know what will happen with the illness and within your lives. It has  way of changing you and your loved one to a person that you sometimes don't recognize and would prefer to not have met. Then other days, you see a glimpse of who you and they were and it gives you a bit of hope... I think the most difficult thing to deal with is the negative emotions like anger, bitterness and overwhelming guilt for feeling them. They can eat at your core and make you question your quality as a human being.

For many years, I negelected to take care of myself as most caregivers do. Probem is that how you treat yourself is how the world will treat you. I behaved as if I were invisible and so now, it seems that way in my marriage. My needs are not as imporatant because I am the 'healthy one'. He never says this in words, but actions speak louder. I have taken on the role to the point where I felt like his illness was mine and became angry when he wouldn't listen to my suggestions when I could clearly see some things he is doing is harmful to himself and has a negative effect on our family.  I am now coming out of my dark place and found some peace in yoga, taking time to care for my body, mind and spirit. I see how my over caring has caused him to feel less responsible for himself and allowing most things to fall on me. I am learning how to back off and express to him that he needs to do what he can. He is in a depression, never accepting that he physically can't do some of the things he used to. He has been abandoned by friends of 20+ years in a harsh and cruel way so that adds to him feeling depressed.

Had he not had the transplant, it's likely he would have passed on many years ago. We are hopeful that things will improve (if the meds don't destroy him first). We have learned alot in this process and for me, I am thankful he is still here. I am sure he feels the same as he would have not seen our children grow up and would not have known our youngest at all who is now 10, and has had the opportunity to make a lasting impact on their lives.

The whole thing does a job on the mind. If I can say anything to you as a caregiver is don't lose yourself. Take care of yourself like you would a tiny newborn, showering yourself with love and postitive thoughts because if you don't you will resent your wife for it.

hope to you both and to your family...

 

 

JULIANELLIS901
COPD TREATMENT

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Meemee45
Mother-in-law & husband caretaker

I am at my wits end. My husband had a motorcycle wreck almost five years ago. He has what is called “absence seizures”. He will just go blank for anywhere from 5-15 seconds then comes back & continues his conversation. He also no longer makes reasonable decisions that he leaves me totally out of. The biggest problem is his dad recently passed in May. I was ogetting my house ready for my mother-in-law to move in with us while my husband stayed at her house se she wouldn’t be afraid. My mil has severe social anxiety attacks. One night she was stressing over moving & my husband asked her would it make it easier if we moved in with her & of course, she jumped at the chance. He told me the next day. In order to combine two households, I had to give away all of my furniture, pots & pans, silverware....everything. The only thing I kept were my pictures & whatnots that mean a lot to me because they were given to me by my children. They are being stored in  5x10 storage building. All I have left after 43 years of marriage.  She did put the House in our name so that no one can take it from us after we sold our house to move in with her. Now fast forward six months & I am miserable. Neither drive so I had to quite a job I love. I am feeling like I am treated like a maid with no rights. I can’t move anything in the house without permission from my mil. My husband puts his mother’s wants & needs ahead of me. I am going into a deep depression. Any help would be greatly appreciated!

Apeter
Yikes

I just don’t what advice to give.  I couldn’t handle that.  I’m hanging on by a thread caring for my end stage copd hubby now.  Of course I don’t have anyone interfering as they are afraid they might be asked to help, lol.

beverldonias
COPD TREATMENT

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YOPDsux
I feel ya

Mike- what is your wife's illness? My husband was diagnosed with Parkinson's 4 years ago at the age of 53- I was 51. He doesn't present as what most people perceive PD to be- tremors, Michael J. Fox symptoms... He has no tremor at all and is physically active. It's the rigidity in his thinking and cognitive processing that is so different. To me, he is a totally different person and it's just straight up hard.

 

Apeter
Not very well

I’ve been a caregiver for my husband 11 yrs and going.  It’s depressing.  Driving us into poverty.  Then the guilt.  The hopelessness.  The thoughts of when will this end.  I’ve done enough research to know others have these same thoughts even if they don’t state them.  You die a little along with them.  Dying is expensive and the surviving spouse takes the financial hits right along this journey too.

heatherfeather10
i can relate its been 10years

i can relate its been 10years of this and I feel like im still too young to be in this situation and my kids are struggling with it too we have no money for extras barely making it 

 

Sadie
Inappropriate post

To sharon761. How dare you! To use this post to try and scam people out of their money. I doubt anyone will read your post and believe there is a “doctor” out there that can help them. But just in case, Everyone needs to know you and your story are a scam and your post will be removed and reported to the proper authorities. 

Deacon John
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dealing with the loneliness

I know where you are coming from.  My wife has had Bipolar Disorder since we were dating.  We've been married for 18 years and the Multiple Sclerosis (diagnosed in 2005) has only made her mental state even worse.  Seeing my screen name, I could easily talk of religion and faith right off the bat.  However, I get just as lonely and feel as isolated as the next guy.  

I try to savor the sweetness of small moments as much as possible.  We do a short evening prayer together and watch her favorite TV shows.  We'll go into a "healing room" I made for her and listen to music while she reads or knits something.  Hanging on to even a few minutes of a good time with her does not lull me into a false hope that she'll become miraculously healed.  But, they remind me that such moments are possible and can happen again.  

heatherfeather10
frustrated

My husband had a work accident 10 years ago it messed up his back very badly. we had only been together for 3 years and had literally just gotten mariied a few months before he fell. Our kids were 7, 6, and 4 when it happened. Hes never really been able to spend quality time with the kids teaching them  things like we had talked about. we used to have adventures together and couldnt keep our hands off each other now I get so annoyed with him to be honest. He is either crashed out all the time or wondering around in an opiod fog doesnt even know what day it is constantly complaining and yelling at me and the kids for things that dont make any sense. there is no bond between he and the kids. and my bond with him is growing thin. I was hopeful after his surgery 5 years ago but nothing has changed. Ive had to work a full time job and clean houses on the side to make ends meet. Our kids are now high schoolers needing all sorts of things and I cant provide those things for them. I didnt think it was going to ber like this i wanted better for my kids but it is what it is I guess. 

rachelwills21
ALS CURE

My first symptoms of ALS occurred in 2011, but was diagnosed in 2013. I had severe symptoms ranging from shortness of breath, balance problems, couldn't walk without a walker or a power chair, i had difficulty swallowing and fatigue. I was given medications which helped but only for a short burst of time, then I decided to try alternative measures and began on ALS Formula treatment from Health Med Lab Clinic Centre, It has made a tremendous difference for me (Visit www.healthmedlabclinic.com).private email: healthmedlab@gmail.com I had improved walking balance, increased appetite, muscle strength, improved eyesight and others. 

Elmagic64
ALS

My wife has been diagnosed in Jan.2020 with ALS. Life changing event after 38 years of marriage.

Elmagic64
Intimacy with spouse
I believe the caretaker needs someone that they share their loss and find comfort during this life changing event.
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I've been really depress and

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matina11
I started on COPD Herbal

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